Evenings are a blessed relief in Thailand; warm, but
without the smothering heat of the day that gratefully surrenders to
the night's relative coolness. If I wasn't in my solitary hut
meditating in the evenings, I would be in the main hall at dusk
chanting along with the other monks, or maybe sitting out in the jungle
meditating (hoping to high heaven that a snake wouldn't crawl in my
lap, or that a rabid village dog take a bite out of me).
At other
times, we would find ourselves gathered under the abbot's hut for a
Dhamma talk. His hut is fancy, with a profusion of tropical plants and
flowers on all sides. The hut itself is small, but because it is built
in the middle of a large, ornate, elevated veranda supported by high,
elaborate pillars, instead of the ordinary four by four stilts that
propped up our huts, the whole structure has an appearance of a massive
building. The living quarters inside the hut are about the same size as
ours; but because it is built on a large platform, the structure is
large enough for the entire community to sit beneath it.
The
abbot is perched on a high seat, being fanned slowly with giant banana
leaves by one or two senior monks, and except for fierce mosquitoes
preparing to feast on us (and hopefully not carrying any bad strains of
malaria), all is deadly quiet, as the monks continue to fan their
abbot. The humidity is tangible; the still air heavily laden with
moisture as a storm brews during this rainy season. Nobody speaks or
moves after we all file in and find a seat on the concrete floor; it is
perfectly silent, a powerful silence with monks and nuns sitting
peacefully, not making a sound.
Shaving my head is a twice a
month ordeal, and with no mirror and safety razors with the safeties
removed, it was an interesting experience. After the trauma of shaving
my own head and mopping up the blood, I meet in the main hall at
midnight with the rest of the community. One of the monks volunteer to
recite the two hundred and twenty seven rules in Pali (by memory),
which takes about forty-five minutes reciting as fast as he can. Then
we sit up all night meditating in the hall until daybreak when we go on
our alms rounds. A few families from the villages always attend these
all-night vigils, sitting up with us and waiting for the three a.m.
talk by one of the monks. The villagers would then go back to work in
the fields the next day, not the least bit concerned about the lack of
sleep.
These full moon nights, where we would immerse ourselves
in meditation, are one of my fondest memories of Thailand, as well as
the serene mornings sitting together in the hall, the trips to the
villages, and the days we gathered to dye our robes. My fellow monks
nursed my body when it was ill, as well my spirits. They fed me honey
and bananas for the dysentery, and they even convinced me to drink my
own urine to cure my many other maladies. The solitary life of these
monks and nuns leave few footprints on this earth, making little karma
through their selfless actions and peaceful existence.
It's
unfortunate that few, outside of Thailand, know about their efforts.
Perhaps the quality that rang so true with these selfless meditators
was that nobody was home. No "self" was inside. Their outward attention
was always directed toward others, toward peace, toward compassion, and
they themselves no differently from whatever arose in their
consciousness. I admire them more than the wealthy and famous that I
now find in America. My heart will always go out to them.
E. Raymond Rock of Fort Myers, Florida is cofounder and principal teacher at the Southwest Florida Insight Center,
http://www.SouthwestFloridaInsightCenter.com
His twenty-eight years of meditation experience has taken him across
four continents, including two stopovers in Thailand where he practiced
in the remote northeast forests as an ordained Theravada Buddhist monk.
His book, A Year to Enlightenment (Career Press/New Page Books) is now
available at major bookstores and online retailers. Visit
http://www.AYearToEnlightenment.com